I recently attended my second Girls Weekend for Your Soul Retreat in Seattle, which is fast becoming one of my favorite cities. It has such a cool vibe! Having attended the retreat last year, I expected this one to be a breeze.
In 2011, I set out to be the hero of my own life. To show up for my dreams, for my life, for my version of happiness, and in support of that journey, I attended the 2015 retreat. I learned about the Desire Map and my Core Desired Feelings. So by the time I returned in 2016, I had lived a whole year guided by my Core Desired Feelings - connection, free, sensual and aligned. I used them to make big and small decisions about my life and my business. It felt good and I was all set!
To me, this retreat was just some fine-tuning, maybe some buffing, and lots of laughing and chatting, with focus on the business. But, to my big surprise, there was MORE.
The truth is, as I was reminded, once you begin this journey guided by your inner wisdom, there will always be growing to do. There is always going to be pruning and discarding and moving forward. I was unprepared for this…deeper dive. Who knew there was deeper?
Now my Core Desired Feelings were guiding me to evaluate my story; the one I tell myself when I am alone...the “cover” story that protects me from showing up all the way. The story that led me to believe that this weekend would be a breeze. Surrounded by people on the same quest, encouraged by their willingness to be vulnerable, I found the courage to be honest with what I saw and what I wanted, acknowledge what was not lining up with how I wanted to feel, and most importantly to LISTEN. I had grown, for sure, my life felt like mine, for sure...now was the time to ask: What had I outgrown? Where do I go next?
In the end, I felt like my soul was dredged. Like it was sifted. I was literally “hung over” for a full week. But the soul-mining paid off. With the help of my soul sisters, I discovered some golden nuggets. I saw how I can be of service in the world; I saw my purpose “refined.” It would require commitment to bring these gems to their full, magical lustre. I tried to step back, I didn't know if i was ready. My soul sisters certainly had no doubt that I was indeed ready.
Last year was about getting to the center of my center; finding my peace and, trusting my, wisdom and goddessness. This year, it's about taking all of me into the WORLD - without apology! It’s about not dimming my light or being “Sharon-lite” because I am scared. I know this belly clenching fear is an indication that I am at the edge of my comfort zone, moving in the right direction.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking. We are all meant to shine." - Marrianne Williamson
The fact is, once you see your truth, you have but one choice…to honor it! You can never again fake it and be comfortable, or turn away from your core desires. You cannot be unfaithful to yourself. Because now you know you have a purpose that is yours and yours alone to deliver to the world. And because you know when it’s not right or things are out of alignment with your soul.
I left the retreat with clear direction and focus, as well as an updated list of Core Desired Feelings: connection, free, aligned, magic, wild. As the hero of my own life, now it’s time for me to dare greatly!
Sharon MacGregor, is a Holistic Health and Lifestyle Coach & Yoga Instructor. She is the founder of Serene Serendipity Wellness and creator of Yoga Brunch which is held at Serenity Farm. As a Licensed Facilitatior of The Desire Map, she helps her clients connect with their internal compass as a way to achieving good health and ultimately a happy blissful life. www.sharonmacgregor.com